The Sessions

Chapter #3 - First Loves - Clue (the key word is "light")

First Loves - What is the definition of "First Love" - When can we say, "ok, i'm in love..." - what defines the boundary of "obsession - love - crush - passion"
Now mostly can I incorporate things that make us happy or objects?...
Oscar Wilde said
“Men always want to be a woman's first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We woman have a more subtle instinct about things. What we like is to be a man's last romance.”
Can I consider the girl I met in primary school my first love? "My first watch". Used to fantasize about meeting her a few years latter... After all, we went separate ways, but yet our paths crossed once... Curious that we both chose the same course... Now I look at her and still see that "remember to breathe"... It was an innocent love... a sweet passion.
Then? Then I remember "Michael Jackson Moonwalking..."
Consider that it still bonds us together and the way we stood for each other... Remember sitting on the porch and just wait for the bell to ring to share the same desk... Likewise we went separate ways and grew apart... Maybe someday I'll sit back and have a cup of coffee with you... Remembered by "Chaos" one of the first compact discs...
Moving on I have the "Mr Record Man" - That was the first time I was really into you! You're the reason that makes me believe in everlasting love and true love... After all, I love you... of course I love the ones I have, but in general it's all about the music and I sure love being with you, playing, hearing, just can't imagine my life without you...
Share... I shared... Back to other loves... I have the "if the subject was love I'd paint this building red"... Lot's of memories... some I've kindly tried to leave behind, but as a growing process we all have, I've learned to live with them and appreciate them from what they were and what represented in those days... Learned to never say never, and yes the soundtrack to this chapter is bittersweet, sad... spacious... Loneliness = Spacious...
A notion of space as lonely place... A setback is required to particularly enjoy this flavor, the kind of emptiness draws us to... I'd say freedom or I could say the fear of being lonely... I could say a word starting with "c" for the first... or i could say a word starting with a "d" for the second... Words reflect names, and I guess I freaking love the power of wondering "what if"
Everlasting "what if"'s is for me the definition of love... I can come to this conclusion after just wondering about the subject...
Curiosity... That works as a sort of "what if"... What if my best friend's psycho isn't after all the the picture it's framed on the wall, but yet the movie frame seen once... That could reflect "nice guy" after all... But I can say that I like feeding novelties and intriguing people by making them make false judgments... why? because when they see they've made a false judgment they'll appreciate you more for what you are and not for what you transpire...
So I've seen a lot out there, and the more I see, the more I see...

p.s. - yes, this song for me is powerful full of words, wisdom and most of all love... freedom you know that and I hope you can see that... as well freedom's best friend...